From darkness to the sun & back!
by Debbie Saporta
(Commack, New York)
We all feel sadness at times. Life is full of changes and bring unexpected circumstances in our lives. As I'm approaching the big 60, I find that I can see things more clearly and recognize the patterns I use to live my life. I tend to be an emotional person and I'm resistant to change.
The unknown scares me; and yet I know our lives are full of changes. Changes can be a good growth opportunity. They still frighten me!
Mental health issues run in my family. I have suffered from several depression episodes and deal with anxiety as well. Because I feel unsafe at times; I look at the world as a scary place. I know in reality that I'm a product of my thoughts. I have recited positive affirmations, did breathing work, exercised, and pushed myself to get out there in the world. I am a very compassionate person because I know what it's like to suffer.
When I look around at what other are doing or have done; that only gets me more melancholy. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others outer world...but I get caught up in it at times. I have measured my self worth by what I do and not who I am for years. I know with my mind that who I am as a person is more important than the job I hold, but I slip back into those old patterns of thinking.
Recently, I observe myself more. I question what I think daily. Some of my thoughts don't represent my reality. Some of my thoughts are false, and yet, we live day to day thinking that what we think is the reality.
I am challenging you, and myself, to feed ours minds more positive information. We need to concentrate on the good stuff and knock that negative chatter out of our heads! One of the ways I'm doing this is keeping a gratitude journal & writing what I'm grateful for every single day! Please join me to change our focus to the beauty, love, health, the nature, and start this exercise . It really works,
With love & gratitude,